Decision Making

Decision Making

Sunday, June 04, 2006

I don’t know why, but the last two days I’ve been feeling like 8 weeks is too long. Maybe it is just the overwhelming amount of change in the first week. I’m not sure. I do know that I keep thinking and praying about this, looking at the calendar, wondering if a refund is a problem, how much will it cost to change the return flight? Etc.

This morning, while creating my counseling calendar for next year, I decided, “Yes, I’m only staying four weeks instead of eight. Tomorrow I’ll contact the airline to make sure I can change the flight, and talk to Antonio (the institute director) about a refund for the other four weeks.”

Now I don’t know if that will be the final decision. I don’t have to decide right now. But, just making that decision in my head seems to have helped a little. Maybe two months was over-ambitious for my first immersion experience. There are Catholic priests (and seminary students) here studying for 5 months. I’m not sure I could do that.

Today, I’m missing home and my regular routine. I know that summer changes things – I don’t go to school everyday. But there is definitely something about sleeping in my own bed, hearing familiar sounds, working in my yard, everything I do normally. Maybe I’m not cut out for big changes, at least not all at once.

I’ll let you know what I find out, what I decide, and what happens